Sunday, July 10, 2016

Wedge

I, like most of the country, have been burdened this week by the recent tragedies in our nation. I, also like most of the country, have been overwhelmed by the media (especially social media) response to this weeks events. What I have noticed to be the theme is divide. Has anyone else noticed that? Everyone is divided. There's racial divide, there's political divide, there's those for or against law enforcement, less than a month ago there was moral divide between the gay community and the straight community after the Orlando shooting. Everyone hears a new story and immediately takes a stand. 

People, satan is waging a war in our country and it's to divide our nation. I've talked with different people this week and I feel myself taking a side in the conversation. I see a post on Facebook of some one's opinion of the situation and a war ensues in the comment section. Everyone hears from the media what happened and they have an idea of who was right and who was wrong and it breeds hate and fear everyone wants justice for someone. 

None of us know the whole story. None of us were there. People have died. Some one's son, brother, father, husband, wife, daughter, friend. Regardless of who was right or who was wrong, people are grieving the lives that were lost. We should be too. 

During our church service this morning we sat as a church and took 10 min to pray with total strangers sitting around us. Pray for our country, for our city, for the victims of this weeks shooting, for all law enforcement, and thanked our God for being all sovereign. All knowing. All mighty. 

At the end of the message on Psalm 20 one line rang out to me over and over. GOD IS THE HERO. In every story. In our country, in our world, in our city, in my life. God is the hero. He is victorious. I am not surprised by any of the events taking place in our nation or oversees because God warned us. He told us this would happen. What shakes me to my core is how the church is responding. Why are Christians waging war against one another because our opinion or view of the situation isn't the same as our brothers. Is the underlying message not Love? Satan is winning. He is diving and conquering. He's dividing cities, churches, races, authorities and even families over stupid things. 

I'm not saying there's not real issues to take a stand on sometimes. The Bible is clear about things that we should not waver from. Our opinions often cloud our biblical judgment and that's our current issue.

I'm going to choose love. I'm going to choose not to get angry or judge someone by their opinion if it doesn't match mine. I'm going to try and support those being scrutinized and judged by the uniform they wear or the color of their skin or the neighborhood they live in. I'm going to stop believing one single thing I hear on the news because I've learned it's only about 30% accurate. I'm going to do my part to battle satan's plan to drive a wedge between us all and I'm going to stand together. 

1 John 4:21
"And this commandment we have from Him, that the one who loves God should love his brother also."

Saturday, April 30, 2016

April 2016

I can hardly believe tomorrow will already be May 1st! When thinking back to March though, it seems like FOREVER ago! April has been a really long month for us! This might be the longest blog post ever as I attempt to recap a crazy month full of highs and lows and also share a little that God is doing in our lives and in my heart.

April started with a trip down to San Diego to Rady's Children's Hospital for a check up with a specialist for B. He was diagnosed with a Periodic Fever Syndrome when he was two and we've been managing it here at our local children's hospital with our wonderful Pediatric Rheumatologist and he unexpectedly passed away in February and the hospital was uncertain if they would be hiring someone else right away. Our Allergist/Immunologist informed us that the doctor responsible for all of the research regarding fever syndromes (which we knew nothing about prior to doing some google research on our own following a series of fevers B had between ages one and two that came almost in a pattern and carried no other symptoms with them) was right here in California at Rady's so we decided it was worth the drive to see the guy that knew more than anyone else.




It was a great visit with lots of information and we were excited to learn that we can manage most of his check ups via email with the doctor and his team of "fever specialists" (who knew there was such a thing) and not have to travel down there too much (because a 6 hour drive with two littles is NOT on my list of things to do again soon)!

Since we were down there we decided to make a long weekend of it and see the San Diego Zoo and Safari Park! The kids both love animals and it was so worth the the trip to see all the cool animals that we don't have at our zoo locally. I would like to put a message in the suggestion box that they level the ground a bit at the zoo. Pushing a stroller with 75 lbs of children up crazy hills in 80 degree weather wasn't my most favorite thing, but I did loose a few lbs on vacation which I feel like NEVER happens!









The line for the actual train ride around the safari was almost an hour long and the kids didn't have it in them at that point so we paid the extra money to bypass the line and get right on and it was TOTALLY WORTH IT! It was every one's favorite part to see the animals in their legit habitat. Our super cool moment of the day was that a baby Rhino had been born at the zoo that same morning and was actually out while we were driving around and we were able to see him at just 5-6 hours old. They are SO cute!



We were able to save FORTUNES by staying with family in Temecula during our trip (and yes, this is their back yard and that is really their view. Swoon). They fed us WELL, gave us more space to sleep and relax than we would have had in a hotel and had plenty of room for the littles to play outside and enjoy the day. They made us dinner fit for royalty the last night, best ribs I've had, steak, chicken, salad, broccoli, rolls, potatoes. I'm full again just thinking about it. We are so thankful for them putting up with us coming and going and two crazy kids who spent too much time in the car and eating junk food all weekend (they were out of control most of the weekend).


The weather this month has been pretty amazing so we've had lots of time to play outside. 


Our sweet puppy that we got in January passed away this month. It was probably the hardest parenting moment we've had to date. We took him in to get fixed (like any normal, responsible pet owner does) and his heart stopped. They did an x-ray and discovered he had an enlarged heart and it was no fault of anyone but so hard. I had to call hubs and tell him at work and then wait until he got home to tell the kids. B was so attached to this dog and is old enough to understand death a bit and he cried and sobbed for literally hours that night. It was awful. We miss him a ton and are probably going to be getting another puppy this summer, but we need some time to grieve the loss of this sweet thing. RIP Paxton "Pax".


The end of March hubs got a call late one night that his good buddy and mentor, Jeff, had found out that day that he had stage four colon cancer that had spread to his liver and his lungs. It was a little crushing for our family and we've spent much of April really trying to put into action some fund raising plans and helping them as a family any way we can. Their dear next door neighbor set up a serve day/cleaning day to get their house sanitized and some projects around their house done before he started chemo to be sure everything was clean and ready for them to be traveling a lot and coming home in between treatments to rest. 


There is nothing like witnessing the body of Christ and a church/work/neighborhood community come together for a common goal to serve and love on someone else. I've been so blessed by these people this month and while we've prayed many prayers and cried many tears for them, we've rejoiced BIG! God is good and to hear his story and see what God is doing in and through them and their family is such and honor and a blessing to us. 

These people below are amazing, selfless folks. They are friends of ours who have a little side hobby/business BBQ'ing. They do fun competitions and cook for friends. They volunteered to cook all of the meat for two BBQ fundraisers. One at hubs work and one at Jeff's church. We were able to get 90% of the food donated by businesses, family of ours and friends so that all the money raised went right to Jeff and his family. These four worked tirelessly to pull them both off (they were in the same week on top of it) and they were both a huge success! Thank you Epperley's and Moore's.


B also started T-ball this month and while soccer last year was a huge failure I feel like he's found his talent! He's really good and loves it! We almost didn't sign him up at the last minute, we had a busy few weeks, I missed the deadline, we were wanting to stay available to friends if they needed us and I wasn't wanting to put one more weekly commitment on the calendar if I didn't need to, but I just on a whim sent in the paperwork and asked if they would still except sign ups and I'm so glad I did. 
We've had some behavior issues with him over the last few years and he defiantly prefers to sit in front of the TV or Ipad rather than do much else so we finally pulled the plug on technology for him and force him outside or to the playroom and this is such a great way to see him shine in what we didn't know was such a strength for him! It's been fun to watch he and KK learn to play together more (they still just fight 90% of the time, but it's getting slightly better). 


Our friend, Jeff gave his testimony at church a few weeks ago and shared not only his life story but all that God has done in this diagnosis process in him and his family. It was so amazing to hear and then to watch the response from people. Lives are being changed and God is making beauty out of ashes. 

"To appoint unto them that your in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness, that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that He might be glorified" Isaiah 61:3


This is Jeff on the right and his neighbor/friend, Jay on the left. 


We have met many of their friends in the last month and joke often that we have new best friends of our own now! When you all work together to serve another and pray over another, you get rather close. Jeff started chemo last week and will be traveling 3.5 hours (each way) every week for treatment and check ups. The weeks he receives chemo (every other week) it's a minimum 2 night stay in a hotel and then the other weeks it's a day trip assuming all check ups and tests come back good. If you all would join me in praying for them during this process they would so covet your prayers. 


Hubs was having some tummy issues these last two months so he had some tests run to rule out any big issues & we are thankful everything came back GOOD!


We've spent lots of time playing outside with neighbors this month. It's fun to have kids on the street that B & KK love playing with. Another fun fact, that house in the background of this photo, is now my parents. This is my driveway you see that backs directly into my parents driveway! It's kind of fun and SUPER convenient since my mom watches our kids during the week while we work. Now she can just walk across the street in the morning, or I can walk the kids over there. We joke that we might put in an overpass so the kids can walk over themselves! It's a pretty busy street so we will have to really watch the kids so they don't dart over to see Grandma & Grandpa.


This week I celebrated THIRTY-FIVE! I've never made a huge deal out of birthday's. Especially as an adult, you still have to go to work, you still have to be a mom and a wife etc. but this year my boss & my husband really made it an awesome day/week. I got a pedicure and a massage (both of which I had been longing for) and I got dinner out with my peeps. Tonight I was JUST told I get a date night with hubs too, that he totally planned and lined up babysitting for and surprised me with. I just know that 35 is going to be a great year. I used to kind of dread getting older, but the more you watch the news and read Facebook you realize that not everyone gets the privilege of getting older, I'm going to enjoy it! Every day is a blessing and an opportunity to bless someone else!



As I mentioned, it's been so fun and encouraging to watch Jeff and Kim handle this cancer diagnosis and treatment with such faith and grace and peace. They have shed tears and they have expressed concerns, but never fear or question why. I have never questioned God or His plan at all, but my heart has just ached for them and what I know they are going to endure the next few months. None of us know what tomorrow holds, but they know that chemo is going to be aggressive and it's going to make him really sick and it's going to compromise his ability to be at every social function he wants to be at and every church service he wants to attend and it means being away from his kids three days every other week. All those things I know are hard for them so my heart hurts for them. I had coffee with a young gal this week who is such an amazing, inspiring, loving gal who shared of deep family pain and death and lack of support by loved ones during something really painful. She was still 100% thankful to God for all He was doing in that process I just hurt for her having to experience all of this. I don't lack faith, I still 100% trust that God is in control and that He knew all of this was coming and prepared us all for it long before we knew it was coming. He put people around Jeff & Kim and around my other friend to help encourage them through the hardship and to encourage and life them up. Sometimes my compassion just makes me long for Christ's return and for Him to save us from the pain of this world. I know that Jeff has been receive message after message and meeting with people almost daily who have asked him about his faith and he has stated that watching people come to Christ or recommit their lives to Christ is totally worth the cancer diagnosis to him. While it saddens me to think that's what it took, there is NOTHING more true and biblical than that. How much did Chris suffer for us? How much did he sacrifice? Why are we above pain or suffering? We have been spared death, and eternity in Hell and have been granted a life and eternity with Him by his sacrifice on the cross. We are not deserving of any of that and there's nothing we could do to earn that, He did all that for us. I have realized this week that nothing is too big for us to handle and nothing here is eternal. Christ has gone before us, he has paved the way and has paid the debt. We just need to love Him & love others. That's it. I can't take away others pain or their hardships. I can come along side of them and pray with them and for them and I can offer help and love them in the ways I know how. I can't save the world and I am OK with that, because I serve a God who saved me from all kinds of sin issues. 



 "We know love by this, that He laid down His life for us; and we ought to lay down our lives for the brethren. But whoever has the world's goods, and sees his brother in need and closes his heart against him, how does the love of God abide in him? Little children, let us not love with word or with tongue, but in deed and truth. We will know by this that we are of the truth, and will assure our heart before Him in whatever our heart condemns us; for God is greater than our heart and knows all things. Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence before God; and whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do the things that are pleasing in His sight. This is His commandment, that we believe in the name of His Son Jesus Christ, and love one another, just as He commanded us. The one who keeps His commandments abides in Him, and He in him. We know by this that He abides in us, by the Spirit whom He has given us." 
1 John 3:16-24

(The highlighted verse is Jeff's theme verse and his tag line is "Love like it's your Job!")


Saturday, February 20, 2016

January 2016

I don't think we had our calendar on "month" view when we scheduled a few big things for January of this year. It ended up being a very fun but very FULL month and since I fully intend to document things a bit better this year, I wanted to get the highlights down before February is over. 

For Christmas this year we got together with Hub's sister and her husband and decided to do a family weekend at the beach for his parents for Christmas instead of a gift. We hadn't all been anywhere together since the kids were born and we hadn't taken a family picture ever, so it was a good time to get away, let the kids run wild, take them out to a nice dinner and get a current family photo.




The kids loved their makeshift camp out with their cousins. The adults enjoyed playing games after the kiddos were in bed and a bonfire on the beach on a rainy weekend was perfect. We can't wait to make this an annual occasion and plan different trips each year (maybe camping next year)!


The following weekend, hubs and I flew to Denver Colorado to visit the Cook's! Hubs had only ever flown once before and we had never flown together (I hadn't flown anywhere in 10 years) so we enjoyed our first flight together (four actually by the time we got there and back). We have been talking about flying out there for a few years but had never made it happen. They came out to California in October to visit family and our kids had strep throat so we weren't able to see them and were so so sad about it, we decided to just book the trip!

Hubs and I have also never been to the snow together. Neither of us are big fans of extreme sports of any kid so we don't ski or snowboard and I do NOT enjoy being cold, so we've just never gone. Not to mention that our local mountains haven't had much snow, if any, the last few years with our extreme drought. I was so nervous about being freezing the whole trip and I wasn't at all! The weather was perfect the whole time we were there, sunny and warm with a gorgeous view of snow & mountains. I loved it there. The company really made it extra fun as well. 


I got to ice skate (pushing it for me as I'm not the most graceful on two solid feet) on a real frozen lake. The giant sign on the way out that says "watch for cracks" was super encouraging! I do enjoy trying new thins and having new adventures so I LOVED the whole experience. 


The photo above is such a fun picture. Laura on the left is a glad that I "met" online via Twitter years ago when we were both new to mommy hood with our oldest two (only three months apart). We could chat and vent about all things related to church, motherhood, newborns etc even in the middle of the night while feeding our wee ones. We were pregnant together with our second little ones too and only due a few weeks apart. We've even text messaged each other at points over the years chatting about life in general. At some point over the last few years I realized (how small of a world is it) that Laura and Cori actually knew each other in real life and attended the same church for a long time. I knew when we planned this trip that I had to meet this gal in person and squeeze her neck! We met for tea in their little town and had the best girl talk/time like we had been friends for 20 years. I love these ladies and their hearts and their authentic lives they've shared with me. 


Our last night there was date night! They got a sitter for little Miss Charley Grace (whom I just adored and is the best baby!) and we rode the light rail to downtown Denver for dinner and shuffleboard in Union Station. Downtown is so pretty and it was the perfect "parents night out" to end our trip. Sometimes it's so fun to dress up and go out and feel like adults. 

We have had a chance the last two years to have some nice weekends away just hubs and I and we really appreciate the people that are willing to keep our littles and let us recharge as parents but some of our favorite trips have been with other couples. There's something so refreshing about having time to chat with other married couples who love each other and love the Lord and are in the trenches of life just like you are. To talk marriage and parenting and family and work and how we manage to juggle it all. We have only had the chance to hang out with the Cook's 2 times since we've all been married and while we've enjoyed it each time, this was such a great chance to really get to know them and spend quality time. I could see us making a few more trips out there in the future. 


The following weekend we decided (in a moment of insanity I'm pretty sure) that this girl was ready for a big girl bed! Her crib was a convertible crib meaning it would turn into a full bed but we failed to buy the conversion piece when we bought the crib and of course they no longer make the piece that connects the headboard and foot board, so Daddy had to build one! She was SO excited about it. 


The first few nights (read:weeks) were a bit rough but we've figured it out and now she does great!


I still have to get the bed skirt to hide the awesome frame Daddy built for her but my mom helped me make the new curtains and her big girl room looks so cute!


The next weekend Daddy played Super Dad and kept the kiddos at home while I traveled down to Temecula for this gal's (my sister) Dirty Thirty Birthday weekend!! Most of the ladies in my family went and stayed at our cousins house and went wine tasting. 


We had the best food at this cute little place in downtown Temecula called Vine & Branch I think. The guys were our Uber drivers. It was such a quick trip but a very fun day with the girls to celebrate.


The weather was perfect the day of. The drive home the next day was a different story. It POURED rain the entire drive home making the roads a total mess. They shut the Grapevine down a few hours after us due to a crazy snow storm. We really got home just in time. I'm so glad I wasn't the one driving!


And because we apparently think two crazy kids isn't enough, I came home Sunday the 31st and we went to see a puppy we were considering and brought him home. Meet Paxton "Pax"! He was all of 2.5 lbs and 9 weeks old when we got him and he's just the sweetest puppy. He's definitely a puppy so he keeps us busy, but he's so cute!


This boy has wanted a dog for a long time and doesn't this face just beam joy!? We hope he survives the two crazy kids! 

February has been a bit slower paced around here but March/April are shaping up to be just as crazy so I will attempt to document all our fun this year!

Friday, January 1, 2016

2016

I love New Years. We don't ever do anything spectacular (especially since we have little kids that need to be home in their beds at 830pm or they are a wreck for a few days). We go out to dinner and then come home with Ben & Jerry's for the adults in our house. We usually rent a movie and try to make it to midnight. Last night I failed at that miserably. I fell asleep on the couch at 1030 and hubs finally sent me to bed at 11. I was totally fine with that. It's been a long week after a busy 3 day long Christmas and then heading back to work and we have a few projects this weekend that we intend to tackle/complete so off to bed I went.

Back to why I love New Years...
I love a fresh start, change, goals, lists, plans, promise, hope. I love having things to look forward to, to work towards and I love the feeling of accomplishment when you get to check things off that list.

One of the things that was on my goal/resolution list last year was to begin blogging again. I just didn't get there. I had a long list of things I wanted to make a priority and I checked almost all of them off and this one just wasn't top of the list. I am totally fine not accomplishing every single thing on my resolution list. It's all about prioritizing the things you'd like to see yourself get to and starting at the top.

I love sitting down on New Years Day with hubs and talking our family goals, plans for our house (project list), travel goals/plans for the year, marriage goals, personal goals/plans, and planning our year together. I love sitting down in December and looking back and reflecting on the past year and checking things off our resolution list from the past year.

There are rough spots in each year. I know there have been days throughout 2015 when hubs and I have looked at each other and about wanted to cry, or run away, or crawl in a hole, but when you sit at the end and look around at all you have and how healthy you are & what you have accomplished for the year it's hard to focus on the rough days. It's so much easier to focus on the growth and progress of the year and all the blessings you have been given.

My personal focus for 2016 is JOY. I want to spend a few min each morning praying that I see the joy in the day and a few min and the end of each day reflecting on all the blessings from the day. There will be hard days (we have a 4 & 2 year old for heaven's sakes) but when you make it a point to focus on the good, hopefully the attitude will change about the tough parts.

My personal goals for this year are:

1. Health- focusing on making better/healthier meals for my family & making exercise a priority and consistent habit
2.  Quality Time- putting the phone down and engaging with my family/friends/housework etc.
3. Mindset- I am a tired working Mama and most days I come home from work and make dinner and feed the family and I'm DONE. It's a mindset not a physical restriction. If I just keep going I won't focus on it. Keep picking up from the days mess so it doesn't get out of control throughout the week, keep moving and get my daily work out in before sitting down etc.
4. Marriage- our marriage is awesome, but I'm guessing that's the case for most people until the wheels fall off. I refuse to be that couple. We are going to really focus this year on growing and improving our marriage. In this phase of life/parenthood it's easy to just go through the motions and fall in bed together each  night and say "we survived another day" and move on to tomorrow. We want to beat that feeling of mundane and stop waiting for the next little getaway to relax and recharge and enjoy each other.
5. Sleep Less- we enjoy sleep a lot around here and I think that's been our issue with "I don't have time". We need to slowly start training our bodies to require less sleep and still function appropriately.

I am not blogging as much to remember moments of our family, but more for me to be able to write and process and reflect. Sometimes I read Facebook posts or articles and I have all these thoughts about them but no place to filter these thoughts. This may become this place.

-M

Friday, January 10, 2014

Image

Life has gotten crazy (as it often does with kids & jobs) and I haven't had time to blog in a long long time. I would love to document my kids lives here for out of town family to see and for me to be able to look back on, but the fact of the matter is... I'm busy doing life with my kids, watching them grow, being involved in the daily grind with them and that is more important to me. I hope my memory will just serve me well enough to remember the little moments I didn't have time to document. If I don't remember a stat or what day they started doing a certain thing or reached a certain milestone I hope it's because I was busy making lasting memories for them by sitting on the floor and playing or dancing, or reading a book or baking a cookie, or making a run to Target (because that's EVERYONE'S favorite place in our family)!


All that aside, there are times in the daily grind that something catches my attention, or comes up in conversation, or I read about on some form of social media during a 2am feeding that really resonates with me and needs to be addressed.


Two weeks ago, someone on Instagram posted this photo


This is Robin Lawley. She's a model. This photo is from Cosmopolitan Magazine (which I don't read). Robin is a "plus size model". This is her sporting her new "plus size" swimwear line. You can see the whole article online here.

The photo was posted by a friend on Instagram with the following caption "This is Cosmopolitan's plus sized model. Thoughts? Because I've got a LOT of them. Our society is messed up. #sad". Of course I instantly had many thoughts but I wanted to ponder them before posting a response to her. Well, that was two weeks ago and I've thought about this photo every day since. Not even the photo but the caption and the comments she received on the photo. Another friend of mine even re-posted the photo on her Instagram and it was responded to with rage.

So what are my thoughts? This is not a plus sized woman in my opinion. But where is the line? What is plus sized and why do we even have the term? Have I ever referred to someone as "large", "plus sized", "heavy" etc. Do I fit this category? How do I raise a daughter in a world that labels a woman like this in this way? Is this photo the types of thing that are going to hurt my daughter and her image of herself or her image of others? Where will she learn to be confident and secure?


My daughter will probably have image/esteem issues. Most women do. Will she learn it from this magazine? Or TV? Or movies? Or Hollywood?

No.

Where will she learn it?

Me.

The rage that this photo sparks with me, isn't because of her title. The rage is because there is a mom out there that will one day mutter under breath about how she is fat, or needs to loose weight, or has a muffin top, or cellulite, or needs to work out, or shouldn't eat dessert and her daugther (or son for that matter) will hear her. Someone who probably thinks she's beautiful and perfect. That is what starts the cycle of image issues. That is what creates the labels. Isn't not what others think of us, it's what WE think of ourselves. Pictures like this don't help women either but we need to be able to know this is not the truth & not let it affect our image of ourselves.

There is a fine line (as with most things) because we should strive to be healthy and we should take care of ourselves, but that doesn't mean never having dessert. It doesn't mean going hungry. It doesn't mean being a size 6 or even 10. Genetics play a role in our size regardless of our efforts and some people will look smaller because of other body shape. I don't care about the number on the scale or the size of my clothes. I care that I am healthy enough to play with my kids, enjoy my family & that I have the will power to do something about what I don't like about myself and stop complaining about it. I hope my kids never hear me complain about the things I may not like about myself & I hope I'm wise enough to never compare myself to someone else. The grass is always greener. If you can change it, change it. If you can't, know that you are fearfully and wonderfully made by God just as you are (Psalm 139:14). I am not cocky or overly confident. I look in the mirror and see flaws but I don't dwell on it. If I wanted to lose weight tomorrow I could. It would take work and discipline but doesn't everything in life?

My goal with my kids (especially my sweet girl) is that they are confident in who they are and who created them. I want them to spend their lives becoming great people on the inside and just take care of their bodies on the outside (hygiene, health etc). I wish more people would focus on that instead of what others might think of them when they look at them. There is a book written by Beth Moore called "So Long Insecurity". I haven't yet read it, but I've heard great things about it. If Insecurity is something you struggle with, I would recommend that book. If you know someone who really struggles with this, maybe suggest the book, or really encourage them to look beyond. I would be willing to bet a few of their issues started when they were young from someone in their house. I would hate for the cycle to be repeated.


"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised!"
Proverbs 31:30



Monday, March 25, 2013

Gender Reveal Baby #2

 I'm back! I want to attempt to document this pregnancy as well but boy, I really underestimated how tired I would be the second time around and how busy my toddler would be. I'm not really certain how people do this more than once! We found out what we were having on Monday, February 4th and had all our family over that night for the reveal because I simply couldn't keep it a secret any longer than that!
 We took pictures of everyone with their guess, mustache for a boy, lips for a girl.
 I think people's "guess" was more their "want" but some went with their gut.
 The Gridiron's (above) have a sweet boy that is 4 months younger than B and they are due with a baby girl 3 weeks before I am due. They were really hoping for a girl this time around so the kids could be playmates & friends for years to come!


Sweet Ella (above, my niece) will be just 7 months older than this baby of ours and her older brother is 1.5 years older than B. They will all love growing up playing together!

My sister (above) said her guess was girl, but since B is so hairy she had to guess a girl with a mustache! :)



The guesses were pretty tied for the most part. I obviously didn't take any pics of the actual reveal since I was the one opening the box with the pink balloons. We do have video that I still need to edit and watch. There were lots of screams and arms flying in the air. It was so fun.

We would have been thrilled either way. There were benefits to either a boy or a girl. I think my Mama Heart knew this would probably be our last baby and I wanted that mother daughter relationship one day & I can't lie, the girly clothes are SO cute! At the same time, a boy would be so fun for B growing up with a brother. There were days I wanted so bad for it to be a boy and there were days I wanted so bad for it to be a girl. I knew I would be happy either way. I had a gut feeling from day one that it was a girl because i was so so so sick this time but I also didn't want to get my hopes up so I convinced myself it could be either. I was truly shocked with the tech told us we were having a girl. I still get nervous (now that a wall in the nursery is pink) that she was wrong and that I'm going to be disappointed. I've checked that ultrasound from every angle and she's all girl!

I said all that to say, I can't wait to meet my baby girl!