boys vs girls

so ryan and i aren't quite ready to have kids yet. my type "a" personality has a lot more planning to do before that can happen. *who will watch the kid(s) while i work? *how will i afford to take time off for maternity leave? *how will we afford to decorate the nursery? (this is important people) *what if i have to go on bed rest during pregnancy? i don't have disability insurance *is it worth having kids if someone else watches them 7 hrs *do i trust the public school system to teach my kids? would i want to pay for private school? do i have the patience to home school? could i even home school while working? there are a million more things that i think of, trust me, this head of mine never stops. one thing i always thought i knew was that i was created to be the mother to boys. girls scare me. of all the years i worked at the school i always related better with the boys. i used to babysit girls and i had fun with the dress up and coloring and watching the princ...