Cafe de Valentine

Our church is doing a series on the Song of Solomon book. We do this every few years as a church family for a few reasons. It is never a bad thing to hear the bible again and again, not to mention that we cover all the different aspects of relationship and I wasn't in the same place last time we did this series as I am now, so it's great to hear it all again for where I am now! The first week was on healthy Godly attraction and the second week was on healthy dating/courtship and this last Sunday was on Marriage. Of course, in my current walk of life, this is one that I was most looking forward to. I will preface this whole post by saying most of this I'm pulling straight from the sermon (I took notes) by Brad Bell (our Senior Pastor at The Well Community Church) please feel free to visit our church website and click the media tab on the top right to listen to any of the sermons online. I promise if you're married that this week's will be the best 30-40 min you'...

so ryan and i aren't quite ready to have kids yet. my type "a" personality has a lot more planning to do before that can happen. *who will watch the kid(s) while i work? *how will i afford to take time off for maternity leave? *how will we afford to decorate the nursery? (this is important people) *what if i have to go on bed rest during pregnancy? i don't have disability insurance *is it worth having kids if someone else watches them 7 hrs *do i trust the public school system to teach my kids? would i want to pay for private school? do i have the patience to home school? could i even home school while working? there are a million more things that i think of, trust me, this head of mine never stops. one thing i always thought i knew was that i was created to be the mother to boys. girls scare me. of all the years i worked at the school i always related better with the boys. i used to babysit girls and i had fun with the dress up and coloring and watching the princ...

there are two families that i have been following for sometime. one of which i know i've shared quite a bit about here on this blog for two reasons. one, because i actually knew this family when they lived in fresno and they were a huge part of our church. two, because my heart ached for a young woman, not much older than myself, suffering & fighting for her life with a husband and small son at home. the second family are complete strangers yet good friends through the blogging world. their small daughter was born premature and weighed just 1lb and 1oz at birth. she is now 11months old and declared brain dead after the last surgery where something went wrong and cut off oxygen to her brain. both lost their battles on monday of this week and were called home to heaven. monica leaving behind her husband, almost three year old son, parents, two sisters, in-laws, and many many heart broken friends. she was a fantastic woman of God and we all have a peace knowing that she is in God...

i promise that i have some fun posts coming up soon, but for right now i'm feeling a little heavy hearted and figured what better way to vent. the end of december was a bit rough for us valentine's with the economy the way it is and tulare county (my husband's employer) making massive cut backs and mass lay off's r has been on edge each day hoping that he has a job to return to. we got a phone call dec 15th from jill's mom (my friend who's wedding i was in the last sept) saying that her new husband had been hurt at work. he has lost both hands and is currently home trying to recuperate. four days after the initial injury and multiple surgeries they found out jill is pregnant with their first. they are both incredibly excited and while this could be just the motivation and distraction they needed, jill is still a bit overwhelmed being newly pregnant and helping her new husband make a full recovery. last sunday the 28th of dec my grandma judy was taken into the ...